I love running, but being ill on the run up to the Great Cumbria Run, then the run itself, made me fall out of love with it a little. How sluggish I felt after being ill made my runs feel, in want of a better word, shit.
The GCR didn’t help: I went over my ankle at mile 3 and had to run on that for the remaining 10 miles. I needed a wee for the last 9 1/2 miles and had to run a mile up hill (after previously running seven) along side the smell of a giant hit-and-run victim badger – not my favourite experience. All in all the run was awful, badly organised (in my opinion) and I won’t be signing up for it again – though, I’m glad to have completed it at least once in my life and it’s another medal in the case.
It became a little disheartening; something I’d loved so greatly and now I had no motivation to go out the door – until today.
I did go for a few runs last week, and one on Monday this week, but my heart really wasn’t in it – I was doing it more because it felt like I had to, rather than I wanted to.
After missing a run I genuinely fancied, yesterday, due to rain and flooding I thought I was back in some vicious circle and I wouldn’t be able to get myself out the house for a run.
Then, today, I got my running gear on, stepped out the house and absolutely blasted through a 5k! It felt amazing. I’d got that taste for it again, I’d found my love for it – that or the endorphin’s really bloody kicked in.
It may be a stretch, but the rekindling of my momentary lost-love of running, I think, came from starting to write my PhD thesis.
Bear with me here: I used to love writing essays (saddo I know) I just got this thrill from researching and debating a questions – possibly why I love journalism so much too – but after my MA and NCTJ its been work, work, work, work, work and run.
So when I lost this desire to run and I had some time to start researching my thesis, I got excited and had this epiphany, if you will, that made me think: I can do this.
I got through cancer, I’ve run two half marathons, and my work is clearly good enough as I’m the editor of the paper and on my way to doing a PhD – I can go for a run, I can fight any sluggish feeling and I can get my life back on track.
I’m now on Strava – previously having used Nike+ Run Club (though, I will be using the latter until I hit my marathon goal.) – I intend to get myself to the local parkrun and be a social runner, for once, and I endeavour not to be too hard on myself.
I can do this and I think I’ve learnt; we can regain the things we loved doing, that we thought were lost – plus I got to fall in love with the wonderful sport that is running, all over again!
Hey ho, looking forward-ish to training for the London Marathon!